day random

• glad that work related stuff is getting relatively smooth.
• sad that I still havent started my lab reports.
• skin condition is getting to a point that I cannot stand.
• nose is getting itchy again, not a good sign.
• listened to a song on the way home; can't breath.
• no feelings about cny. probably cause I am really getting old.
• tired of family issues.
• found something else that cause me stomach ache.
• I am not a nice person, but I am never good at saying no.
• need a reboot on personality system.
• it's rare that I can't read someone's mind; not even a bit of it.
• feel like I am digging myself a hole to jump in.
• I should go jogging.. haven't done that for... too long.
• serious panda eyes.
• bottomless eyes are hard to resist.
• I am sorry.

I need someone to talk to.
sigh.

GoodBye

it no longer hurts.

what is left,
is just... nothing.

It's been a year.

"But this ain't a movie, I know you can't come with me..."

It's been a year.
exactly one year.

I promised myself, that I would live happier.
I guess I failed.

Life with headache

Headache.

Can't help to feel so left out here.
Could never actually fit into this atmosphere.
I guess afterall, this is the true me.



Tired.
It's been awhile that I actually think about him.
Reminds me of stampede somehow.
Sigh

too nice to be nice

nice guys are usually hateful.
and it's always true.




read till the end of the world.
get me out of this crap.

Yay

又有機會出另一份first author paper!!!!

hold on.

當一切都消失於黑暗之中，
當那雙翅膀再也沒法飛起來，
當那雙眼眸慢慢的失去顏色之時，

世界，已經悄悄的崩潰了。

靜下來，用心一聽，
才驚覺那是屬於世界的悲嗚。


耀眼的光輝。
孤寂卻溫暖。
情不自禁的展開已經破損的翅膀，
努力的飛向世界的盡頭。
那怕，那是萬劫不復的地獄。

spread them.　

我

• 有太多說話，太多感覺。
  是某種感動，某種突如期來的溫暖。
  這是我收到過最真摰的「禮物」。
  我，真的很感謝你。
  
• 我沒有害怕。
  因為，我沒有任何更多東西可以失去。
  追求，只因為我有所希望。
  
  

orz....

害怕悲劇重演　我的命中命中越美麗的東西我越不可碰

My dearest new 36c, please function properly.
My lovely 7500, please don't scare me again.
My beloved QIAgility, please be a good boy.

.....yes I should NOT touch any machines orz.

閒聊

• 坦白說，那的確是近年來我聽到最奇怪的說話。
  
  別去從一個人的說話來看一個人。
  我指的是別只看和聽片面的。
  
  我只是喜歡用文字把自己的不快表達出來，
  那不等於我是個生活上很不懂去愛自己的人。
  
• 嘔胃酸是件很比真正嘔吐更可怕的事。
  (再說多一次，我是有好好吃飯的；在回來之前很久我已經有好好吃早餐好不好..)
  我只是不懂如何放鬆自己，那就是說我太在意生活，不是太不在意.... =口=
  算了，反正他也不看這裡/懂中文..XD
  
• 這種感覺令我保持心情愉快。
  
• 我喜歡一個人在家的感覺。
  但我不喜歡一個人在上班上學回家之後，作家務的感覺=口=
  
• 原來1月很快就結束了。
  時間真的過得太快.........
  是我老了嗎?
  
• 謝謝你，我想我終於放下來了。
  也許，你也不知道我在謝你／看我的Blog，
  但我真的想說，謝謝。
  因為，我發覺只要心甘情願的走出第一步，
  一切都不再重要。
  

我不喜歡這個城市，
可是，我還努力的活著。
因為，在這樣子的環境中，
我才能體現自己存在的價值。

Days

昨晚嚴重失眠，我想我差不多全脕都沒有真正入睡。

上班也沒感到什麼，現在上堂真的沒法專心，尤其是在學我大學時做research的題目.....
真的很累....

胃很痛。不知道搞什麼，胃痛得很。
我絕對有乖乖的吃早午晚三餐的。
只是一直都很想吐.....

我絕對不是有了身孕.....

已經受不了的吃了tums..
(想到昨天看的一套戲，一個配角可是把tums當糖吃，如dominic.....)
可是為什麼還是在痛...

別問我是否很大壓力，我無法回答。



好了，我是真的被這個教授逼死.....

活著

一種沒法用文字表達出來的感覺。

屬於一種偶爾的悸動吧？

我喜歡這樣子的感覺。

算是給生活一點的樂趣。

久違的一種感覺。

daily life.

It's been awhile since I've updated this.

1. Had a great time with my beloved friends today.
2. Maybe the food wasn't the best, but I've enjoyed a great tea time buffet with my girls, and well my beloved son? xDD
3. Shall stop spending that much. But it is hard to resist, given I keep shopping with those crazy shopaholics? xD
4. Lack of sleep max. Can't really have a good sleep.
5. Work is kind of annoying me. Well, things are not going smooth. Sigh.
6. I am not doing as good as I think in school. Well, even I am just aiming for a pass, that kinda disappointed me.
7. I've a lot of random thoughts in mind, not quite sure how to express them, but in short, I am quite confused.
8. Sometimes, I think I should really move on. Because truly deep inside, I know he cannot be the one.
9. Curly or straight? I know who prefers / insists the latter, but oh wellz lol
10. "我信與你繼續亂纏　難再有發展　但我想跟你亂纏" I smile bitterly.
11. A busy life that I want. Work, school, friends. But somehow inside, it is still empty.

Fill my emptyness.

Happy 2011

Happy New year.
Happy 2011.

新的一年，希望有新的開始。
向前走，向前望。

新一年有很多目標...
當然了，我想我上年打的目標都應該沒有完成吧..=口=

1. 身體健康。
剛剛這一個人氣管敏感，真的令我感到無限痛苦...
2. 工作順利，學業不過不失。
3. 儲蓄不斷上升!!
是應該說我要買少點東西啦...
4. 真的有回覺自己胖了，有點容忍不到..
aka是時候真的努力做運動...=口=

其實有很多地方想去，東西想做，
只是發覺身體跟時間已經有點不行....
是我老了嗎?! =口=

感情方面，我沒有要求，
有些事是勉強不來的。

再次祝各位新年快樂。

但願一切安好順利快樂。