here.

I could have,
just lied to myself,
and pretend to live happily ever after.

Why I picked the harsh way?
Probably because,
I am just too tired of telling myself,
this is the life I want.

I hate here.
I hate everything here.
It only brings up memories that I don't want to face.

I am jealous.
I really am.
of those, who get what I truly wanted deep from my soul.
and, sigh.

When one day, I am really tired of this.
I guess, I will leave.

sick

i m sick, again.
cheers.

I swear the air con in the stupid PCR room @ work made me sick.
It is broken...34&#$&%^*^&*%^&
It is like at least 5-10 degrees cooler than the outside temperature.
And I have to work in that room for like most of the time......



silence.

我們的愛

愈是明白了解，就愈不想輕易放開。
不過，我想，再倔強，我還是沒法說服自己。


這樣子也好，
我想現實真的狠狠的給了我一巴掌。
醒了，不想醒不願醒，
也應該起來了。

只不過，我依然忠於自己。
我只想忠於自己的心。
否則活下去也沒有了意義，快樂是由心開始的。

「我們的愛 過了就不再回來

直到現在 我還默默的等待

我們的愛 我明白 已變成你的負擔

只是永遠 我都放不開 最後的溫暖 」

life

This week was hell.
Like honestly, anything possibly can go wrong, went wrong
This is bizarre.



i m jealous.
seriosuly i really am.

cherish what you have.

i dont need...

或者，到了最後，
結局都是一樣。


那麼，我還是安靜下去吧。
就這樣子，沉默下去。

"now honeslty this won't do..."

Oh David Choi, can you please get out of my mind?

...

"舍得舍得，不舍，怎么能够得呢？"

See you.

I live in this little world of mine.

I was reading one article few days ago.
It was talking about, how some people are meant to be alone in life.
Not saying that they are always by themselves, but the feeling of it.
Even they are surrounded by a whole lot of people, going to tons of gatherings,
but still, deep inside, that "lonely" feeling is still there.

I used to hate that... feeling.
Until I got used to it.

It's also true that, we are all one seperate individual afterall.
We were born with nothing, and we are still alone at the end.

I am enjoying life more than anything right now.

Believe it or not.

twins

發現了件很有趣的事情：
我在香港找到了很多twins，很多跟在外國的朋友相似的人。

我的某位TA... 樣子不似，可是聲音跟Doug很相似。
曾經在mtr上跟peter看到了個很像mindy的女生。
今天在學校看到了個樣子外型打扮都跟alex tang很似的男生。
某天吃飯的時候我差點以為自己看到了C生。
etc.

之後，今天發覺我的同學之中，有一個男生，跟他很相似。
雖則沒他那麼高，也沒有他那麼瘦，也沒有他那麼帥(嘔)...
只不過，這位同學，跟我剛剛認識他的那時候，很相似，
那個在我眼中永遠都長不大，呆板天真的他，
那個，永遠都被我喚作孩子的他。
當然，(很可惜的)這樣子的他，已經，不再存在了。

是因為，我太想那邊了嗎？

out there somewhere

There're certain things in life,
that everytime you think about it,
it hurts you inside out,
deep from your soul.

I can't do anything about it,
I can't get over it,
so, all I could do,
is sit here silently,
dropping tears,
and knowing tomorrow would be another day.

I thought this busy life could make me think less,
but I guess I was wrong.

I miss you.

and fun fact is, I know you won't read this.

random and random

typed a lot of random stuff.
deleted it.

and i told myself,
it's alright.

because i am happy the way i am.
time to get over it.
seriously,
it's time to get over all these random feelings out of no where.

it's alright, i guess.

it's alright.

smile?

"I hope it's worth it too."

smile, with tears.


this is more than it is, isnt it?

where?

累，除了累都只有累。
睡了整整兩天，醒來-->吃-->再睡。

頭還是昏昏的，
感覺很累。


肚子很餓，想去吃東西，
一看到食物卻又沒有胃口，
吃完之後很想吐。

我是搞什麼了....

時間表已約到了下下個星期...
where's my rest?!

...

reached my limit.

and btw,
i seriously hate people forcing me.

why?

i stared at the photo
and i can't get my eyes off it.

heartbeat increased,
pumping so fast.

sigh.

why you have to do this to me....?

this is less than three.

when your mind breaks your sprirt of your soul

物質上得到滿足，卻沒法得到心靈上的。

總好像少了點什麼。
繁忙中的確能找到自身的存在價值，
只是同時，卻感到無法言語的空虛。

是現實生活一定會面對的，這是肯定。
又或是，這是我所選擇的。

聽著他說，他的父母這個星期會一同去看Corn Maze，
腦海傳來了很多不同的想法，
最後，卻只是笑著想，這就是他的幸福。
這就是不同人看不同事物所能得到的感覺不一樣的反應。

聽著她說，結婚之前也有著很多的問題，世界上沒有必然的幸福的。
能笑著面對的才是成功。

我只是固執的守著我最珍視的兩樣東西。